MS & I

Sunday, May 30, 2010


"Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow. We must fail in order to know. Sometimes our visions clear only after our eyes are washed away with tears. "

I have to talk about a dream I had a few weeks back. I know I really need to keep up on this blog, but so much is happening so fast. In my dream I was back in the past of my life. this was before I was ever having any type of symptoms. I was going to a friends house and I remember having this feeling of nothingness. In my dream I begin to say to my self how boring I am, that there is nothing interesting about me. Now in this dream I some how knew that in the future I was going to be diagnosed with something and that I was special enough to have it. You see I got the feeling that I got MS because I was special enough to get it, that I was chosen in a way. Not just anyone can be "blessed" with this disease, I knew that my Heavenly Father thought that I was so cool and exceptional that he gave me this "gift". For some reason I am to make something of my self with this gift, this thing that I have been blessed with that makes me stand out in a crowd. I am out of the ordinary in my own little way and because of this I find my self more interesting, and no longer not so boring.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010


It would be so wrong not to say how thankful I am for all the wonderful people in my life. To start my amazing husband who has put up with me for 4 years now! If I was him I would have started to run a long time ago. Thankful for my parents for always reassuring me that everything happens for a reason, and that I will be able to handle whatever comes my way. “Life’s up and downs they come and go”. Now my biggest thanks must go to IHC in Murray. I was so scared to go to the hospital, not because hospitals scare me. I really did want and NEED help with what was going on. I was afraid because at the time I had no insurance, and knew there was no way I could handle the hospital bills. I was in the hospital for 2 weeks. And in a Nero rehab unit which included intense physical rehab. You could just imagine how much they were charging me for 6 PT’s a day! The hospital was amazing and sent a financial assistant to my room and he filed all the needed paper work so I could receive help with paying for this extensive stay with no insurance. When I was home and the hospital bills began to arrive it totaled to about $28000.00. I am explaining this because I know that people became really concerned after seeing me on the news in March, which had a break down of my “mounting debt”. I can not express the appreciation that I have for IHC. They sent me a letter about a month and a half after leaving the hospital. The letter explained to me that I would only have to pay less then 10% of the bill. Because Jeff and I are so cheap and all we do is save our money we have been able to pay all of the hospital bills in full. Our next concern was my MS medication. Jeff was hired to a job that offers insurance. The medication that should be $1600.00 a MONTH, is now $60.00! So to let all of you know so far Jeff and I are being taken care of. Thank you Jeff for working 2 jobs so that we can get by while I am home trying to recover. I hope they will give me the approval to work again by the end of this summer because I am going StIr CrAzY! THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!

My support...including Den Boy on Devins head :)