I have to talk about a dream I had a few weeks back. I know I really need to keep up on this blog, but so much is happening so fast. In my dream I was back in the past of my life. this was before I was ever having any type of symptoms. I was going to a friends house and I remember having this feeling of nothingness. In my dream I begin to say to my self how boring I am, that there is nothing interesting about me. Now in this dream I some how knew that in the future I was going to be diagnosed with something and that I was special enough to have it. You see I got the feeling that I got MS because I was special enough to get it, that I was chosen in a way. Not just anyone can be "blessed" with this disease, I knew that my Heavenly Father thought that I was so cool and exceptional that he gave me this "gift". For some reason I am to make something of my self with this gift, this thing that I have been blessed with that makes me stand out in a crowd. I am out of the ordinary in my own little way and because of this I find my self more interesting, and no longer not so boring.